lets keep things simple

Saturday, November 21, 2009

11:14 PM

and i lost my comb again.

this holidays aint going to be one.

&the beauty.

10:57 PM

hey guys! don worry about what you read below. i am ok. just some pent up feelings. i am REALLY touched that all those who mattered to me wish me happy birthday esp all my sec sch frens and caitlin. (:(:

you know what?
i am looking from your view point thats why i didnt mention anything until you forced it out of me and shirk everything back AT me. thanks. i would not have cried if you hadnt done that. what's the point? if you want it to be like this, even though i don like i will still go along with it. but pls stop assuming that i am not doing anything. the one that is not doing anything is you. i try and try and try but none of you but caitlin saw my efforts. you don know how it feels to not be wished by your frens early in the morning on your birthday but by other schmates. you all didnt even bothered to say hi and you are complaining it is MY FAULT i am upset. thanks. and then when mr robin asked me if i am ok you are the first person to exclaimed no when you are the one who did it. pls don put all the blame on nigel. he is the one who has been understanding, not you.

BUT i am happy i have all my close and wonderful frens who sms or called to wish me happy birthday even though they cant physically be there. i no need a cake though i am appreciative and touched by the effort. i just want to sincerely wished am feel like a birthday gal.

i love my sec sch frens and caitlin for all they try to do for me on my birthday. thanks everyone who sms to wish me especially those from xinmin. you guys really made my day even though you all couldnt be there for me and made me felt like birthday gal.

if not for caitlin...

thanks bf for being there for me.

&the beauty.

8:43 PM

ok this is byl but
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!

hahahahah.
thanks everyone who wish me on msn, fb, sms or called.
thanks the few who gave me prezzies! i LOVE them!!!!!
thanks ruimin and ebird for calling from hk! see you guys ssooon!!!!!
max baked me a cake! hahha. he is going to baked one for yuhsuan too! hahhaa.
thank you for everything you did for me and treating me to so many stuff and flooding my fb wall like crazy.
i want the photos!!!!!! hahahhaha.

i am satisfied with my promo results. hopefully next year my goal will come true. (:

i saw a little gal on the bus home today. she reminded me of purity, innocence and cuteness on my birthday. i played with her. the look she gives in her eyes to mine is one full of trust and playfulness. even though we are just strangers, she was so at ease with her surroundings. She turned around and stared at me with the most curious eyes i ever seen. hahah. though i got "slapped" by her and got kissed on the nose. but she reminded me what human nature is supposed to be. (:

&the beauty.

10:34 PM

thank you for the wonderful day at the beach!

&the beauty.

10:21 PM

i am feeling irritable tonight. actually the whole day la.
i don know. i have no mood to do anything now and my weekend is slightly ruined by nafa.
i have no nafa tonight but have on sat and sun and next week my whole fri sat and sun is taken up by nafa. zzzz.

i got hmwk to complete before the weekend starts. cause i want to go out. but i havent get my butt on the table yet.
rahs. ok i am just feeling irritable. ignore me.

i wonder how much of their teasing i can take. i know it is true to a certain extent but cant they see i am really trying to balance my time with both them and him. they don have to say it all the time. i know i don give as much of my time as before. but i am always with you all in school what. >< i feel bad enough. but when i give my attention, then i get teased the other way. haix. nvm. shall keep trying.

i really thankful and happy to know you all but don hurt me this way leh. i know you all don mean it but it hurts.

&the beauty.

6:10 PM

should i tell my parents? they sort of already know i guess. :X
i just i really don like hiding this from them.
but i really don know what to do.

haix.

&the beauty.

12:04 AM

PW IS OVER!!!! hahhaa.
had op today. left i and r but hahaha.
i was so "lucky" as to get two op assessors, two internal moderators and two external moderators. >< >< ><
but it went ok la.

nafa was tiring. next week last lesson omg.
i am so tired. :/

going out with drey tml. yay!
then hong on sunday late afternoon. hahaha.

ok goodnight. lol.
my posts are too short to be worth reading. ><

&the beauty.

10:28 PM

what a bitch.
enough said.
you disturbed my life unknowingly WITHOUT even knowing me enough.
and just so you know, you are the only one i ever considered a bitch.

&the beauty.

7:59 PM

hahhaha. chinese Alvls is OVER!!!! hahaha.
i think i did ok. but shall not keep my hopes too high right? my oral already died so yea.
lets just hope for the best!

OP is on friday. ><
need to be pro-OP now. after this. PW IS OVER TOO!!! hahahaha.

was discussing my OP day with hong over sms ytd. COINCIDENCES is a really funny thing. but nice. haha. just like she and him now. happy for them. mine OP is 6, hers on the 11. exact switch over. but i doubt you got what i mean. haha. oh must rmb to ask her how was chinese ltr.

there are lectures tml. got new bio chem and math notes. T.T but i like this relaxed but got sch kind of life. it is like not too free but not too busy. but i know i cant get used to this cause next year will be anything but this. ><

rahs. i think q & a sounds like a session to test quick thinking and passion for pw. it is like ten seconds to formulate a good systematic answer is hard for everyone and really require you to think fast. i guess you can only prepare this much for op but whatever the case i will practise what i can ba.

ok enough about pw. =X

i am happy with what i have now. (:(:(:

2 lessons to nafa exam. OMG. kill me.

&the beauty.

11:47 PM

nafa was quite fun but tiring today. (:

omg chinese As is on MONDAY. >< >< ><
op is next fri. OMG. >< >< ><

ok random.
anyway, audrey let me hear a song a few days back. it is like one of the saddest songs i have heard. carrie underwood just a dream ---> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8khHqMntkbQ

oh another song that is nice is the other side of the door by taylor swift! hahahaha. go listen guys!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rZKFEp1MILA

hahah. had op second dry run today. i don know what came over me >< but i am ok now. thanks baby for being there! (:(:

i am so tired. so i shall end here. hahaha.

&the beauty.